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let me start from yesterday
was totally not in a mood.
so didn't went to huili house
because of some problems that should not had happen
was like crying the whole day
maybe i am just too depress
read a novel online
so damn touching till i cried
but no one knows.
then went to sleep after watching da chang jin.
slept for awhile woke up.
found out that i was having fever
i can't breathe properly
headache
was damn not well
but force myself to sleep
how i hope that i would not wake up after that sleep
anyway i woke up again
feeling more unwell
then woke up at 9 something in the morning
didn't went for marching
as i was not feeling well
and the worse thing is that no one told me that there was marching today
he told me last minute
then went to huili house
at 3 plus
the story ended
after months
it's my fault
the feelings can't be controlled
i cried once again at huili house
i couldn't take it anymore
i am so fucking stress up
maybe everything must come to an end now
everything
i must have a good rest
catch up my breath
and start anew
i just totally changed
attitude
the biggest problem now
hope that he still can help me
impossible
i can't even help myself
how are people going to help me
i really wanna turn back time
maybe i should just concentrate on my stupid studies
which is more impossible
studies
who ever see me studying everyday
and studies have been one of the things that i have gave up in.
if can i rather quit school
fcuk off this place
but i am gonna do well
although i don't study i still can get good grades
craps
but is true
i didn't even study for my psle
i don't even give a damn
but i still can get 3 a's and 1 b
craps arr??
i am gonna work hard with pohling
somemore i also don't dare to slack at those places le
cause of the............
and as i was saying.
jonas
u must work hard
u can do it
i also can do it
u gonna prove to me that u can
xueli
u also must work hard
must study
if jonas can i can't see why u can't

okies i will stop here.
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i am just no one to you now
but you will still be in my heart
forever
the memories
will never be forgetten